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Yes, arrgh, pictures are not up yet! Baka, baka internet. I can never seem to wait for my pics to upload nicely before I get cut off and I actually have to type all my posts on word first before posting it up straight away when my internet finally works! I just caught Fast and Furious 4 and hoo boy, NOW I find Paul Walker hot! Never did think he was good looking until the movie ended. The movie wasn’t too bad actually haha...I did enjoy watching it with my mum and my mum seemed pretty into it as well! HAHAHA!! And I turned to her after the movie, not wanting to ahem, expose my newest obsession and said my friend found him so good looking after watching the movie. Which was true! Jo Eve could not stop gushing about him aites! My mum immediately responded : Yes, its true! He’s very, very good looking, his eyes are really nice! And she said it in such an excited tone. OMG! Who would have thought my mum would fawn over Paul Walker too??
I just saw Ann Nie the other day and we had so much of fun! Ahha can’t wait to see you again, hunJ Now, this post I really have no idea what to write but since my friends were talking about love the other day. And I was talking about it to Kiwi the other day as well. It made me realize that we are pretty similar in a lot of ways. Somehow, we still hold onto that hope that somewhere, someday we will meet that person. The One. The one who would be so perfect for you, you just want to put down roots, throw the anchor down and never leave your spot. The one, where in the early stages of being in love, you plot with your friends over the phone how to kill of love rivals by throwing them to the sharks or whatnot. The one that makes your heart beat a little faster at the thought of seeing them and whatnot.
I can’t say for sure what the definition of love actually is. Heck, can anyone ever really? All I know is, during the early stages, the mere thought of seeing you and talking to you brightened up my day. It made me so nervous, wondering if I was going to slip up and say something stupid. It made me want to be so perfect for you, so you would never have complaints and when I slipped up and showed a side of me to you that I didn’t want you to see, I would beat myself up. Then, it progressed to me being a little more comfortable with you but then jealousy flared out of control. I couldn’t see the imperfections within you. I could only see the good side of everything in you and it was magnified by a hundred times. Hence, I wasn’t able to fathom other girls seeing you as sojust a friend. And when you speak to someone else and we’re going through a rough patch, I get mad. I get unreasonably mad and jealous as heck. I want you. I want you so much it hurts when I think of you wanting someone else with the same intensity.
I can’t wait to get up to see you. Then, you got to really know me. We started spending time, in fact almost everyday and I felt so close to you when we started sharing our problems. About how we really feel about things and people and how we should react and our views. Then, the insecure feeling began kicking in. I was insecure that this would slip through my fingers. This state of relationship we now had. When you cancel something, I get upset, when we don’t really talk for a few days, I get sad because I keep thinking the good things aren’t going to last. I keep thinking he’s moving away now, he’s distancing himself. Then, I get moody which makes things even worse.
And now, after much ups and downs, debits and credits, I’m now in a very comfortable and contented place. And it’s all because of you. Because of what you say, what you do, what you’re willing to do I know I can find assurance in you. That we have a good relationship as friends. Yes, yes friends for him. I know I’m secure with the fact he cares for me. He really does. That’s why those jealous feelings and whatnot although are still there slightly. I don’t really feel it anymore. I no longer feel insecure. I feel content and safe and happy in his presence even if we’re doing something so simple like sitting down, or lying down, talking. And I feel, I could live my life like this for the rest of my life. I feel comforted at the mere image of him, of his surroundings, room and whatnot. I once read this phrase, Loving you gives me confidence for I am confident in giving everything and trying hard every day to make you happy.
And for the first time in my life, when I hear about how you really feel, all your fears and all your worries, I listen in silence and I actually feel tears welling up in my eyes. Even when I turn away and cry, not wanting you to see how upset I am, I take comfort in knowing you’re still there for me. You’re still listening to my problems and you feel so helpless you can’t help me. You made me realize we all have our bad and good days. Nothing can run smoothly forever. It makes me want to hug you every time I see you down. It makes me want to banish every fear and give you all the happiness in the world. Even when I’m out, I think of how to give you a pleasant surprise. I get so angry at the people who insult you, I feel protective towards you when I learn that someone else has caused you pain. You make me speak my mind. You make me want to show you all my sides and you give me reassurance that I am still accepted for who I am. You never judge me, you never complain, you only look at me with those eyes and I just know I’m content here by your side.
Yet, it never erases that slight skip my heart feels at the thought of meeting you later. At the thought of seeing you, I have a silly grin on my face and after knowing you for some time, I still replay scenes in my head. And I know that I will try my best to get through to you. I’ve already tried so hard to break your wall that when I finally did, I wanted to collapse with exhaustion and cry for succeeding. I wanted to jump for all the world to see. And each time I feel you closing up again, no matter how upset or exhausted I am, I know I’ll find the strength to keep knocking your wall down. You put it up once, I’ll knock it down again and again. You make me greet you with a smile on my face each day. And you make me so relieved and grateful to have met you. To have gotten to known you and I know I can’t let go. It’s this feeling inside you that you know you would do just about anything to make him happy and safe. The way your grin practically brightens my day and replays in my head over and over again. The way you never make me feel stupid when I dare to tell you I don’t know and find it insanely comforting to hear you explain things. The way you show me your vulnerable and affectionate side. The way you make me appreciate every second with you and making everything else seem mroe alive and beautiful when I'm with you. For making me not care where I am as long as I'm with you.
So yes, I may not know what the definition of love is but I do think the way I feel cuts pretty darn close to it don’t you think? And tank you to all my friends who’ve stuck with me through all my ups and downs and I’m sorry for being so moody at times especially during the earlier stages. And this is when it hits me, Oh. My. God. I really am in love am I not? I love you for who you are, who you aren’t, the way you make me feel, the way you make me want to try so bad so I can be a better person for you, for doing little things that absent-mindedly make me want you, for making me realize no matter what happens, I feel so darn lucky to have met you knowing not everyone finds someone who makes them feel this way. Though I now am aware of your imperfections, they seem so trivial and far away and nothing compares to how I feel. You make me want to dance in the rain and laugh crazily at nothing. Quote of the day : Loving you is the second best thing that has happened in my life. What’s the first? Finding you... So, Kiwi, thank you, for just being there for me to see, for me talk to, for me to think about and most of all, for me to love. Song of the day : Fearless by Taylor Swift and Someone like me by lindsay Price.
dream, dream, dream 10:39 PMFirstly, I truly apologize I have yet to upload pictures! My internet does not allow me to do so! I have to wait for ages and ages and yet it won’t upload! But, here’s a post to make up for it! Word of advice : always, ALWAYS listen to your parents. For if you don’t, they’ll be out for revenge and shudder ruin quite a lot for you eh! Hahah...technically, I’ll be writing about this dream I had last night.
I sound so bloody ‘perasan’ here but ahem, it’s how I dreamt it aites? Well, I’ve been staying in this hotel for some time now and you know in your dreams, some things can turn out pretty funnily? Yeah, well this is it. This hotel is actually the home of some really rich family whereby they converted the first 15 to 20 floors as a hotel and the rest of it, about 10 levels is where they reside. And it was beautiful! Gorgeous! The upper part of the hotel which is their ‘palace’ is actually concaved in, so it’s overlooking breathtaking views! All the floors are wonderfully furnished. A very rustic, grand ballroom with lots of wood going on. Looks very warm and there is this huge winding ballroom stairway that winds and winds up to 10 floors and it was gorgeous!
Right, so we start off with me in the swimming pool without my spectacles and this ensures my vision is extremely blur. Hence, i can’t really make out clearly, people’s features but the odd shape here and there. Until I met this guy(who’s name I cannot remember but let’s call him A because his name started with an A). We became friends and I ended up talking and spending lots of time with him. All this while, bear in mind I have not a single clue as to how he looks like! Now, this is the ahem ‘perasan’ part whereby there are actually 2 guys after me. Yes, yes. Roll your eyes. The thing is I could not choose because I did not really have feelings for the both of them. Both were quite good-looking and extremely rich. I didn’t enjoy their company though and always seeked out A in the pool.
Until one day, A told me up straight and forward, don’t string the both of them along. Just make your decision. It’s either him or him, okay? After that, I decided to talk to one of them expressing the fact I preferred him to the other. After telling him that, the guilt and disappointment hit in! I could not help but feel overwhelmed with it. Like it was telling me it’s the wrong decision, it’s the wrong decision! Stop whatever it is you’re doing! Immediately, I ran down to the pool to look for A to talk to him about my problems and I could not find him! At that moment, I panicked, thinking A had left me and that was when it hit me like a bolt of lightning! I was in love with A! I wanted A! I enjoyed his company so much and I had such strong feelings for him I felt such a sense of loss without him. True, I had no idea how he looked like or if he was rich or whatsoever but at that moment, I just knew i was in love with him.
So, I ran about like a headless chicken asking everyone do you know where A is? Do you know where A is? And guess what? EVERYONE knew who he was! WHY? Because that bloody fool ‘s family owned the hotel and he was ridiculously wealthy. So much for not telling me! Is this not turning out to be some fairytale story? Just you wait till you read what happens next! So, I finally got his number and called him up...HAHAHAH!! A fillipino maid picked up and was like hello? Me : hello? Can i please speak to A? Her : Huh? Mr. A? He is busy right now. He is getting ready for a ball he is throwing for you. Me : Ball? WHAT ball? Since when was there a ball that was being thrown for ME? I did not know anything about it! Her : Hurry, hurry get ready then! Mr. A will see you at 8 and commences to hang up! Blah! I start hyperventilating and immediately ring up Tasha and Ann Nie. They rush right over and they are both squealing like small kids. OMG! It’s like a Cinderella story and Tash was like! WE HAVE TO CALL NEESH TO COME! She has to DO YOUR MAKE UP! And so, the troops were called in.
Next, after everything was set and ready to go. My heart was pounding like crazy. Everyone, especially people our age were staring at me as Tash, Neesh and Ann Nie were rooting for me. I was standing at the bottom of the stairs and I knew A was waiting for me all the way at the top. I ahd to hurry and tell him how I felt! I had to see how A looked like! Seriously though, you know how in your dreams although you can’t see it and it looks nothing like that person or object but you know in reality it is? Yeah, I knew A was KIWI! I just knew it. Each time I was talking to A, a mental picture of Kiwi would come to mind! So, Kiwi= my prince charming hmm?? I took a deep breath and everyone else too! See, the sucky thing was, I could not see how I looked like or what dress I was wearing so no description here:< Seriously, all the girls were staring with envy and then, people started applauding as I took the very first step up the first step! As each step increased, my heart would beat faster and faster and all eyes were on me. I’m nearing A, I’m nearing A. I can already make him out. Just a little bit more. A little bit more till I tell him how I feel! I reach my hand out with a smile and hear, “LI-WEI, YOU BETTER WAKE UP NOW!”
And conveniently jerk out of sleep back into reality. Yes, my mum had her revenge! She woke me up! Seriously, 5 more seconds please? There goes my prince charming. Yes, laugh, laugh! Annona wanted to kill me. She was like, and then and then?? With the look of anticipation on her face. LI-WEI YOU BETTER WAKE UP NOW. She starts laughing uncontrollably and prompts to glare at me like WHAT THE HELL? I KNOW right! Sadness, ah well, it was the most perfect Q day yesterday:P Well, maybe not MOST PERFECT but darn close to perfection that is. Hun, I’ve seriously fallen in love. I’m doomed, am I not? Guy of the day : A/Kiwi. Quote of the day : Li-Wei, you better wake up now. Song of the day : Ever ever after by Carrie Underwood or Love Story by Taylor Swift! It would only seem fitting right? Goodnight sweet dreams hun. May you all have better luck than me:<
Tuesday, April 14, 2009 Friday! 6:43 AMHah! This is such an overdue post. Sorry, sorry. Been pretty busy, ahem ahem and internet has been pmsing A LOT on me! Like dear God, I did not sign up for this. Topic of the day? Haha! Last Friday : Us HELP girls went out to celebrate Jo Eve and Annona’s birthday! Well, technically it was a be-early birthday but still *grin grin* it was soooo FUN! Yeah, quote Tash, it was a slut fest! Woohoo!! K, the problem is I haven’t been able to locate my phone’s connecting wire! I wanted to post up this video of Wan Joo, Jia Ern, Jo Eve and Tash singing I LOVE ROCK AND ROLL in the car. Haha! That was seriously priceless and then , they all just kept quiet after awhile under the excuse of ahem , I need to concentrate on my driving!
At first, we wanted or rather I wanted to try out the Sphagetti Grill with their set lunch but we ended up going to Italiannies because they were promoting this set lunch that costs rm 13.90! We all got conned apparently, it STARTS from rm 13.90 only. =.=’’’ Anyhow, we sat down and had lunch and oh dear god, we haven’t even sat down for 2 minutes when Miss Choong, Annona here took out her camera and started camwhoring. Seriously woman, get a grip on yourself! Wan Joo had to introduce Annona to the waitress(coz she wanted to get a complimentary birthday dessert for the birthday girls) as the girl holding the camera now with a very ‘zha dou’ tone. You’re not the only one, hun.
Well, we all had lots of fun! Haha I’ll let the pictures do the talking aites? Unless of course if I can’t seem to upload the pics today then it shall be up the next post aites? Coz I take forever to load pictures and I have so MANY! Most prolly it will be up the next post, though. Sorry, sorry! Then, Debbie wanted to watch Shopaholic which i wanted to rewatch really badly! Haha what can I say? It was such a nice feel good flick. However, it was already 1 plus when we ordered our food and the place was PACKED with people. So, THAT many people were conned hmmm? The movie was starting at 2, the next one would be at 4.30. Sadly, they all had transport problems what with the 5.30 jam starting. So, we all hung out and finally it was Tasha, me and Debbie! I honestly thought the both of them would spend the entire movie insulting it and voicing out their displeasure with the incorrect and altered facts.
Darlings, I have now witnessed a miracle. The both of them LOVED the show. Hah! Even Tash apologized and said I take back what I said, i love her and i enjoyed the show. Both of them found Hugh Dancy aka Luke Brandon really charming and hot by the end of the show. Haha! That was funny! And really, that concluded the end of our outing but it was really nice:P An all girls’ outing. There was even one time when one of us pointed out to Jo Eve the shirtless Armani exchange model on a poster and a few guys turned to look at us, giggling like high school girls. I’m going to miss this after A levels is over and it’s coming to an end soon darlings:<
Just before I end this post! Haha I have to share with you all what Tasha said that really cracked Kerk Wern and I up. We were all in my car, Kerk Wern picked us up yesterday actually when it was raining. And I can’t remember how the topic came about but it was a debate on being in a relationship and why people want it so badly and Tash said it was because we hvaen’t been in a relationship before so we would like to know and it’s unknown to us how it feels like! Then, Kerk Wern said in a really exasperated tone(slipping his mind that besides him, we were still single without having any experiences before) : I don’t understand you people, what is so great about having a boyfriend? HAHAHAHAHAHA! The PERFECT answer sprang from Tash’s mouth. THAT’S THE PROBLEM, KERK WERN. WE DON’T KNOW! Haha..you have got to love that girl for coming up with the wittiest and funniest replies EVER. Even Kerk Wern was rendered speechless and declared it the best answer EVER. Haha like this one time, the three of us were at the back of the bus when kerk Wern spotted this behind the seats. Someone had written pussy popping behind and he looked at it strangely before asking me how does one do that? I BLUSHED! Haha and he said, oh maybe Tasha has the answer to it. So we turn to ask her and she said, err, I don’t know coz mine has never been popped before and I just wanted to fall to the ground and roll in fits of laughter.
Anyhow, I should end my post here and pics the next post, k? Promise. Haha...song of the day : Like being hit by a bullet. Its a really sad break up Korean song. Translation goes something like that : breaking up is like being hit by a bullet. This empty hole in my heart where all the memories are flowing out. Guy of the day : it’s still Brian Kinney! Haha I mean I KNOW i’ve got it bad when i scroll down Fei Ni’s playlist and I see Brian McKnight but in my mind, i’m reading out aloud Brian McKinney, Brian McKinney for a good 20 seconds before realizing eh? I can be such a dodohead sometimes. I was in the car with Kerk Wern and we had just parked the car and strangely, the car park was pretty empty. Usually, it would be packed! So i commented on it. He then said, today is the sultan of Johor’s birthday. That brought out an OOHHHH!! For a good 8 seconds before i went EH? He looked at me with a are you for real look? And said, they have nothing to do with each other. Yeah, I know NOW=.=’’
Wednesday, April 8, 2009 I'm in love with a gay! 6:24 AM
Yes, now that I’ve caught your attention...hahah...I’m in love with a gay, namely Brian Kinney. Who you may ask is this man? None other than the main character of the series Queer as Folk, Qaf. And he has me irrevocably and helplessly in love with him. Yes, I think the similar line was used in Twilight when Bella was describing how in love she was with Edward. See hun, she has got no right to use the L word. Why? She hasn’t even seen him with his clothes OFF yet? For all you guys know, she might have been too grossed out with the excessive amount of hair on display. I kid you not. And how the hell are you suppose to fall in love with someone when conversation between the both of you is so frigging awkward? Yeah, you’re going to so and so? What gives you the right to ask? You don’t even say hi.” *pauses for awhile. “hi.” Oh, oh, oh! The best is yet to come! “It’s like the lion falling for the lamb.” “What a stupid little lamb.” “What a sad masochistic lion.” (Hello? Someone pull the trigger now)Me, on the other hand, ahem, approve of Mr. Kinney. With or without his trivial and unnecessary clothings. :p
But to all of you out there who despise and cannot stand anything homosexual, Qaf is most definitely not for you, aites? A MAJOR warning here. Lots of male slash male scenes. And yes, I mean seriously, it gets hot and heavy. C’mon you should have known that little fact, considering I know how he looks like without clothes, eh? Anyhow, long story short but knowing my blog it’s a long story nonetheless! The show revolves around 4 gay guys in Pittsburgh and their everyday lives. They pretty much go to this gay club called Babylon which is the local’s favourite haunt and they even have a backroom where, people rather the gays, go there for a quickie. Hahah...apparently, sex crosses the straight men’s mind every 12 seconds. It’s 9 for gays. Interesting fact, no? Ok, well maybe not for you if you’re a girl. Haha...you have at least 3 seconds to breathe in the presence of a male pretador. Guys on the other hand, good luck hun! Especially Eu Jinn who is forever attracting gays at his gym. Gays who’s fingers itch to take a smack right out of his ahem asset. Poor baby.
But seriously, I have no issues against this whole homosexuality controversy. I think it’s perfectly fine. Haha..not to mention Qaf has really witty and funny lines. Tash even wanted to try it out except when we went over to my place my dvd player reused to play it resulting in me smacking it and shouting at it, what the hell? You homophobic player! Anyhow, back to the story. Then, there is the introduction of this 17 year old kid called Justin who decides to venture out on to the streets of gay clubs and whatnot. He catches the eye of Brian Kinney. Oh wait, Brian Kinney. A brief introduction about him. He is smoking hot. He gets hit upon by gays non-stop all night and he believes in F***ing not love. He is never ever apologetic and he can be such a jerk sometimes. He believes that you can never really commit especially if you’re gay. So, embrace who you are. You f***. It’s quick, easy and efficient with no strings attached. Hah! Or so he believes until Justin waltzes into his life, catches his eye and he takes Justin’s virginity. Later on, Justin is so enamoured by him because Brian stood up for him taught him a lot of things, including rimming. Right, I shall not disclose what rimming is. Hahahaha...it’s too embarrassing even for me to describe ne.
Justin is just so in love with Brian, I mean come on who wouldn’t be? He weasels his way into Brian’s life and even moves in with Brian after some very unfortunate circumstances. Remember that Taiwanese or Korean drama whereby the girl tries and tries and never gives up eventhough the guy can be such an arse to her? Because she loves him so much and she believes one day she can touch his heart if she keeps trying. Yeah, replace the guy with Brian Kinney and the girl with Justin. The whole show technically discusses political issues and social issues and how they are discriminated and how their parents can never truly accept them. Some even resort to beating some gays up. It’s absurd but yeah, it’s what goes on in the real world. Justin falls out with his father but his mum is so sweet and understanding. His parents end up divorcing and his mum Jennifer, finally embraces who Justin really is. It’s really touching at some parts.
Besides Brian, there is Michael who is Brian’s best friend, who has been in love with him ever since they were 14. Brian is currently 29. To him, turning 30 is equivalent of lying in a coffin. At first, Michael is really jealous of Justin but after he meets another guy and starts having a life of his own, he accepts that Brian will never view him in that light. He has this really cool and awesome mum who opens a diner catered especially for gays. His mum actually wears shirts that say ‘F*** you.’ Ooh ooh! Haha...she has one that say my son is gay and I’m proud of it. She was the one that talked to Justin’s mum(Jennifer), when jen first found out about Justin being gay. Jen asked Debbie(Michael’s cool mum), how can you just let them go out and know they will be..ermm...ermm. Debbie retorts, what? F***ing?. She then digs into her bag and brings out plenty of condoms and tells Jen, either way, they will be going out and doing shit. So, this is the only way you can ensure they are safe.
We also have ooh! My favourite besides Brian, Emmett Honeycutt. He is a flamer. A flamer is a gay that shows his feminine side and hoo boy is Emmett a flamer. A very lovable and adorable one. His fashion sense is outrageous but funny! Take for instance, he was going through clothes and he came across a really trashy one that was white above, and it said I love Boys. The bottom half was sheer and transparent with black netting. He held it up with his infamous BIG cheeky grin and asked his friend, ted. Ooh! What do you think of this? Ted replied with a stoic glance, trashy. Emmett replied, Ooh! You sold me. I’m getting it!’ Emmett really cares for his friends and whatnot. I will always remember this one story he told Debbie’s brother(Vic), who has aids.
Vic was accused of sexually harassing this policeman who has a thing against gays. Vic is old and has aids. After catching Aids, he quits nightclubs and one night stands. Vic was sick and tired and he didn’t want to fight in court for his innocence because he said it’s pointless. Me standing up against this entire community who has a problem with gays. A lot of people wanted him to fight for it but he made up his mind. Until of course, Mr. Honeycutt told him a story. Know Vic? I used to have a teacher back in highschool, Mr. B and he was perfectly fine until one day when he was accused of sexually harassing a female student who had an unblemished reputation. I knew he as innocent but he didn’t fight for it. He said he didn’t want to make a big fuss out of it and he packed his bags and left school. A few years down the road, I found out from another teacher he had caught a disease and he was on his deathbed when he told his family, all I ask of you is that you do not put my name on my gravestone. When his family asked why? He said, because my name is worthless.
I was like! Oh dear, so sad. Because he did not have his pride and did not have the determination to clear his tarnished name it was useless for him to bear a name. Why would he need a name for if all he was going to do was let it rot. Vic finally stood up for himself and when he thanked Emmett, he guessed that Mr. B wasn’t a real guy. Emmett grinned cheekily at him and said if all my stories aren’t true, they should be at least. Emmett is adorable and a really good friend. You can count on him to be there anytime, any day as long as you need him. We also have Ted Schmidt who works as an accountant and can only dream of being laid by a hot guy. He has that mousy look and very low self esteem. He is the one that probably shines the least in Qaf but Emmett never gives up on him and cheers on him all the time.
Technically, the show lasts for 5 seasons. Amazing it wasn’t cut! Ahaha..the thing is, I was looking for this song on youtube and I found the song except there was a fan made video to it. And I saw brian! Immediately I thought ooh, who is this? Click. I almost fainted. Brian/Justin pairing. I was like!! HUH??? WHAT???? But then again, cause Brian was so smoking hot, I gave it a shot and whoah, I was hooked onto it and thank God, for pirated vcds. I managed to buy all 5 seasons for rm80 and they are all frigging clear with subtitles. Wonderful, wonderful! Brian Kinney all to myself and he really can be very sweet and caring towards Justin in some parts that just made me go awwww. I want my very own Brian Kinney. Seriously! He takes care of Justin and make sure he gets to school and makes sure that no one hurts him. *sigh*
I think this show is really awesome but unfortunately, it’s too long already this post haha so I shall elaborate more the next post. I seriously cried at some parts. When, some parts of the show actually tell you to embrace who you are. The characters are wonderful actors and the things that happen to them, it really is quite relatable and quite touching. So there hun, if you don’t mind male pairings, give it a shot. Heck, you never know! You could end up like me! I have after all influenced 5 people. They are hooked onto Qaf for now. Aah...so proud of myself *grin grin* So, give this gay a chance. Brian Kinney. I’m going on my Qaf marathon now! He cheers me up when I’m down. Aww..hahaha..add a lil Qaf to your computers or cd shelf NOW! Or you could just borrow it from me, eh?
Melanie and Lindsey, the lesbians in Qaf
Debbie, Michael's mother!
Ted! one of the accountants
cast of Queer as Folk!
Mikey! Brian's best friend
Emmett! haha look at his 'shirt'. told you he's trashy but lovable! look at that grin!
cast
My gorgeous Brian Kinney!
Look at the man! sighs
This is Justin! the lil weasel who weaseled his way into Brian's life! I want to be a weasel now:< 
Brian and Justin! awwww..it takes time to get used to aites?
Saturday, April 4, 2009 Confessions of a Shopaholic 7:13 AMJust caught Confessions of a Shopaholic today in Midvalley. There may be spoilers in this post for the movie so, if any of you have yet to watch it or do not wish to know what takes place, don’t read this post yet till you’ve watched it, aites?
I’ve never been a fan of the Shopaholic series and never read any of the books either. However, decided to catch a feel-good chick flick and this one was quite good. Unfortunately, the same cannot be said for Tasha who has already declared, ahem, her dislike for the film. Then again, she’s a huge fan of the series and I know what it’s like to love a series of books only for the movies to come out like...well, let’s just say it does not live up to expectations.
We start off with this little girl who wishes she could own and buy what she wants instead of what her mum wants, because her mum obviously does not adhere to the fashion code of her generation, leading to jeering glances from other girls. She can’t wait to grow up and have a ‘magic card’ of her own to use. She grows up and ends up having 12 ‘magic cards’ to use. A little bit too much of magic I should think. This lands her smack right, up to her eyeballs high in credit card debt. She just can’t seem to resist the siren call of shops as she passes them by.
The mannequins literally dance and move and even persuades her to purchase things which she obviously does not need. Well, we should all thank her overactive imagination because if it weren’t for said imagination, the mannequin would not have tried selling her this green scarf which lands her plopping right into the arms of...ahem...charming Luke Brandon. Strange, my imagination never seems to get me anywhere, much less landing me in the arms of such a charming guy!:P Though I must agree the green scarf really is gorgeous.
Her dream is to work at this fashion magazine called Allete. She’s rushing for this interview of a lifetime when she spots this beautiful scarf and the mannequin manages to sell it to her, being the perfect sales person, saying it would define you! You would be known as the girl with the green scarf. Besides, it makes your eyes look bigger. Whoosh, she’s sold. Guess what hun? She maxed out all her cards and had to end up going to this hot dog vendor to get some money. Clashing with Mr. Luke Brandon. In the end, she finds out that someone else by the name of Alicia (gee, sorry if I misspelt it) has already gotten the job. With a tip though, she decides to work at this other magazine which ironically, teaches people how to save money. This magazine is called Super Savings, run by Luke. Surprise, surprise. At first, she doesn’t get a job but due to chance, she ends up writing this witty letter about cashmere coats and investments and sends it wrongly to Luke. He on the other hand, saw the ‘brilliance’ in it all and realized she actually could appeal to normal people as they understood what she was actually writing. Instead of falling asleep every two lines(like me, obviously). Funny moments soon ensue all this while with Becky being hunted by debt collector, Derek Smeath.
She soon fabricates this story whereby this Derek Smeath is actually an ex boyfriend who stalks her under the pretence of being a debt collector. She gets closer and closer to Luke until they go to Miami together and she finds out he was meeting Alicia(a female dog, really) and she ends up being really disappointed. All this while she has been trying really, really hard to kick her shopaholic habits with the help of her best friend, Suze, who happens to be renting her, her place. Her best friend is everything a person could ask for. She stands by her through thick and thin and helps her out with her credit card bills and is fully supportive of her which really, makes you want to go give your best friend a great, big hug. Becky becomes really popular and starts moving up the social ladder when her articles get published under her pen name, the girl with the green scarf.
Finally, when Luke realizes the only girl for him is Becky, everything unravels. Derek Smeath manages to hunt her down and humiliate her live on TV, she falls out with her best friend and Luke is angry with her for lying to him. The scenes where she was explaining to Luke why she could not stop shopping and where she argues with her best friend brought me to tears. She falls out with her best friend because she gave away her bridesmaid dress and her best friend, the bride to be, found out. Soon, when Alette came knocking on her door to hire her, she turned them down and instead, turned to the people in her gathering, Shopaholics Anonymous to help her sell everything she owned. It was like a mob, I tell you. Everyone rushing in to buy items being sold by ‘the girl with the green scarf.’ All this while, Luke, who starts listening to Becky’s advice leaves Super Savings and establishes his own business.
Ok, this scene brought tears to me. The scene where she had to auction off her green scarf. The scarf that started it all. There were two girls, a brunette on the phone and a blonde. In the end, the blonde won the green scarf eventhough Becky’s mum told Becky not to sell it as she had already sold so many things. When Becky had to hand the scarf over, oh dear, it was quite heart wrenching. I cannot imagine what it must be like, giving up something you want so dearly. It’s like it’s a now or never opportunity. If you let go of your hand now there is no turning back and you know you want it so badly. You know you don’t want to give it up but at the same time, you’re afraid to voice it out until you’ve let your fingers uncurl and let it slip through your fingers. Then, you breathe a sigh of relief and sadness at the same time. She told the blonde, “it may bring you love.” Awww....
She attends Suze’s wedding and all is forgiven, with Becky wearing the hideous bridesmaid dress. Good God, it was bright pink with layer and layers of colourful ruffles beneath. After the wedding, she walks past shops and even withstood temptations, leading to the mannequins applauding her and she’s happy and start skipping and dancing with joy when all of a sudden, she sees Luke standing in front of her. Hah! He actually looks at her and said, you sold everything but you kept that?(referring to the hideous dress).
Now, this scene gets it’s own paragraph! It was so, so sweet! He asked her, “so, you really got rid of everything?” “yeah, pretty much. I have nothing left.” He told her, “I wouldn’t say that.” And, and, AND! He brought out the green scarf. I was like awwwwwwwwww.....!!! and she was gobsmacked and said, you were the bidder on the phone! But you lost! He promptly told her, both bidders were his. Then, the magical moment of each film where both characters’ lips seem to find each other and meld. Yes, for other wondering what the heck I’m talking about. They kissed. There, better? I’m sorry I’m gushing about it. It’s just that I found the scene so utterly sweet. Makes me want to go out and find my very own Luke Brandon eh? Hahah!
Isla Fisher is quite adorable in this role and her dance moves are hilarious. So, any of you planning on checking out this movie, just watch it for what it is, a feel-good chick flick without high expectations of it becoming something superbly wonderful.
I personally never did find Hugh Dancy aka Luke gorgeous. He aint’ bad looking, that’s for sure but compared to the likes of my other obsessions...ahem ahem...Brian Kinney and Spike for starters, he’s okay. But I found him utterly charming in this movie. I mean, I’ve always thought he was the charming sort but in this movie, wow! And adorable, not to mention when he saves Becky from some pretty sticky situations. Hence, guy of the day : Hugh Dancy! So, girls, doesn’t this make you want to rush out and get your very own green scarf? Haha...you never know hun. It could bring you love and your very own Luke. Or even if it doesn’t, at least it’ll make your eyes look bigger. *grin*
The infamous green scarf
Friday, April 3, 2009 The Apartment 7:49 AMWowee, today has been one heck of a day! Annona wanted to stay back to study today but we planned to get a massage later on. So, I decided to grab some lunch with Tasha at the curve. We wanted to go there for lunch once but those plans were cancelled! But we sure had a good time. After class, we headed to the car and drove off. Honestly, the car park ratings at Help are ridiculous! Besides the ones at main block that is. However, we have to catch a bus ride from main block to where the A Level students are having classes and it is always JAMMED! Especially at 4 when all the classes end. It’s crazy, the car park is all jammed up and no one wants to give you way.
If you were to park near your classes, the ratings go sky high. Take for example, inside the KPD blocks, first hour is rm3, every subsequent hour they add on rm2.50. You do the math. I had to pay rm 8 merely because I missed it a little! 2 hours and 5 minutes...WHAM! 8 ringgit! Anyhow, luckily we managed to get to the Curve without a hitch^^ Grin grin, I’m gaining confidence in my driving. Haha...and not to mention I managed to reverse park just fine! We actually walked about looking for places to eat, comparing prices before we decided to settle for the Apartment. I’ve wanted her to try the place out for awhile now. I was introduced to this place by Yeong ean, Michelle, Annona and Joo Li on one of our outings. I miss you guys!
The interior deco is really quaint and adorable. They decorated it to look like it was inside an apartment. They had the bathroom section with towels and taps, they had this bedroom section with beds. Oh yes, this is me promoting the Apartment, aites? Hahah...they have this lunch set thing going on now which I think is really reasonable. You get to choose one of the main courses plus soup of the day for rm 13.90! Obviously, they only give you 3 choices in that category. The next main course category would cost you Rm 23.90. But! The choices aren’t too bad. Tasha had this tandoori chicken wrap with minted yoghurt sauce. Besides that, there was this honey chicken salad and the next choice would be tossed pasta. All equally yummy, trust me! However, we were pretty pissed at the fact that we had to order mineral water if we wanted water. Guess what? They gave us Evian. What? Did they have to milk us out of all our money? SERIOUSLY! Evian? It costed us rm 5 each. I kid you not. We were pretty mad about that. But the food was really good :P I’ll just let the pictures do the talking aites?
The duck and mango salad..it was so good! really refreshing with and the tastes just meshed really well together. I usually hate salads, but this one was just so lovely I couldn't stay away from it. Even tasha loves this one.
Just another rainy day..so dreamy though
A glimpse into the apartment
My favourite picture! Their chocolate mousse is to die for! It's really smooth
(this pic is from another outing though with Ann Nie and Jon)
Yummy! their warm backed choc pudding with vanilla ice cream! One hot , one cold, the perfect blend..tastes so good! (another outing) Seriously chocolatey
Yummy..mushroom and chicken pasta..it wasn't very spicy..but tasty nonetheless(another outing)
If I'm not mistaken this one was called portobello mushroom under the tapas section..it was really nice and flavoured with pine nuts(another outing)
This one is Jamie's Duck Pasta..with tomato-ish sauce and lotsa duck and pine nuts(another outing)
FIsh cakes with chees inside..hahah...it tasted super yummy..a lil gooey..with some sauce at the side(another outing)
I had this one today! Andrew's pasta! with asparagus and there was cheese! It's quite light but you can get pretty tired of it after awhile..advisable to share, eh?
Tasha had this one! The tandoori chicken set..I didn't try it but it looked yummy! And she said it was lovely!
The soup was gorgeous..mushroom soup! the lunch set soup! it wasn't your typical creamy-ish soup...but it wasn't bland at all and Oh Dear God, their potato salad was soooo GOOD!
Tasha and I! hahah...both of us at the apartment.
We ended up in Borders after eating, whew. We were stuffed! I was looking through my manga section and Tasha, being Tasha was at her magazine section which I joined her soon after. I asked her, why won’t you sit down? She looked at me like I had gone mad. So, I sat first and she burst out laughing and joined me. Immediately, we lost ourselves in our magazine world. Honestly, this was how our conversation went. You would hear lines like, “Eh, don’t these two girls look alike?” “Do you like her? No? Yeah, neither do I.” “Eww, she’s disgusting!” “Oh.My.God. she is so skinny! That’s absurd” “Oooh, Chuck bass.” Speaking of which we were so excited about the horoscope section. Reading out to each other our horoscopes. Apparently, Tasha is going to go and mark her calendar because my horoscope said that I should keep any feelings I have a secret until the 12th of May where the perfect opportunity to confess my feelings shall arise!This paragraph shall be dedicated to all those poor seals being killed brutally in Canada. They featured this article in one of the magazines and Tasha and I were discussing about it and commenting how cruel it was. I mean, how could you stare into those eyes and at that cute face, then do sucha MONSTROUS THING? I have no idea who the heck he is, but apparently he’s some big shot in some Ministry in Canada. He said, “ I don’t see the harm in hunting all these seals because they are nowhere near being an endangered and extinct species.” I wanted to throw the bloody book at him and shout. So? Cold, unfeeling humans such as you are hardly near being extinct too huh? Why don’t we just drive that sledgehammer through your head, smart ass? Do us and the entire world a favour, if there is any, ANY, ANY brain matter between those ears in that head of yours, please pass those words through it first. No matter how tiny it may be, don’t short circuit your words straight to your mouth. Idiot.Besides that, Tash and I had a really good time. After sending her back, headed over to Annona’s place and we headed over to Telawi street. She was so lucky and found this parking spot near McD’s. We walked over to Sulagu’s, near Baskin Robbins to get her waxing done before rushing back to her car because she remembered she had forgotten to pay for her parking spot. Next, we went to Si Fu, this reflexology place and decided to try out this package deal which was a 40 minute reflexology treatment and 20-minute back and shoulder massage. The reflexology was painful! Honestly, Annona and I were fine with it at first, then, it got...quite uncomfortable and excruciating. Which was weird, because I had it done before in Gui Lin, China and it was wonderful! Hmm...but the back massage was really nice. I almost dozed off. Hahah, I don’t have the pictures but Annona does:<>Later on, Annona wanted to eat her fries so we head over to McD to grab a bite. It started pouring cat and dogs soon after. Hahaha...we were soaked! I had trouble shutting her umbrella and I was wearing heels! When we reached her place, we had to run across the street to her house, her gate was opened. She had an umbrella and I just ran for my life. Haha..and guess what that ding dong girl did. She was running, when all of a sudden, she stops smack RIGHT in the middle of the road, holding her coke, umbrella, bag, books to do WHAT? Takes off her shoe and her PINK socks. She proceeds to do it for the next foot with me staring unbelievably at her. She glances up and notices me staring at her before bursting into laughter and she walks in, barefooted. Her defence was, I did not want to wet my shoes. After that, we pretty much hung out in her room, watched a movie before I headed home. Not too bad a day. Ooh, she even slowed her car down for me to take pictures of the rain...haha..the view was lovely. I always love it when it rains. It gives a very peaceful and romantic feeling, especially somewhere quiet with a lot of trees.Ooh ooh! haha...congratulate me for being influenced by tash and Eu Jinn..haha..the 'female dogs.' For eg, we were all having lunch and Eu Jinn being Eu Jinn said something really mean and he did dramatic gestures and said, "Oh.My.God. I'm so mean, what happened to me?" evryone kept silent and i just said, "Nothing." Evryone froze like whoahh...who would have thought eh? hahaha! and then I got a round of applause and congrats..ahem..welcome to the 'female dog club.' Much appreciated guys, much appreciated. Ooh another incident that happened today, Eu Jinn asked Tash to pass this message to me : You're very beautiful today. HAHA! Guess what I asked Tash to tell him : save your Bulls***. Hmm, I wonder where all this anger is coming from....perhaps directed towards a certain fruit?:p
Quote of the day : by Tash “I don’t get why people are so into Gossip Girl. Well, I know you’re in it for Chuck Bass.”
Song of the day : (Seriously, I am so hooked onto a small part of this song. I heard a snippet of it from the show War of In Laws 2 and googled it up! It was so hard to google it! Apparently, that song was written for the carton Total Drama Island which is a parody of reality shows. The best I could do was find this small snippet of the song. Does anyone know where to get the full song?) here’s the link. http://www.zshare.net/audio/54388606288eaff6/
Oh.My.God. Such a long post! See? I always write too much! P.S haha...are your mouths drooling after all those pictures? haha..sorry for putting up way too many pics though..couldn't help it! took me forever to load all of them ok? haha appreciate my hard work!Ahha...well, toodles then!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009 First Offficial Post 5:49 AM
'I may be love's bitch but at least I'm man enough to admit it'Firstly, I must, must, MUST thank my much missed Priya! She helped me put up the blogskin, cbox and whanot or would never have started this blog...so, thanks a lot darling! By the way, this is my first official post..hehe...Priya did the honours with the very very first one. Secondly, I must give a big HUG to all my friends for helping me deal with the Q problems. Hear that Annona? Thanks for accompanying me the past few days and of course, Tasha! For accompanying me and trying to cheer me up. Thank you Ann Nie for always being on the phone right when I need you...not to forget Brian Chin! And Brian Yong aka hedgehog! hahaha...it’s like I’m giving my Oscar speech eh? Hahah...I can imagine Priya going HUH? WHAT Q PROBLEMS? I’m gonna come back and kill him or rather castrate and slowly torture him to death. Love you too hun. Today, how should I describe today? It’s been a horrible week altogether. I prolly wouldn’t have managed to hold out if not for my close bunch of friends. I really wonder sometimes how much you care. I really wonder sometimes if you know each hurtful word that leaves your lips is sufficient to kill me. I really wonder sometimes if you know I’m merely putting on a mask of fake happyfyingness, trying to mend the situation and I’m just dying inside, breaking down in tears when all my efforts seem so futile. I’m in too deep now, I should have know from the beginning, my downfall would be caused by a fruit...yes darling, a fruit...or we could always say an alphabet. Depressing much? I honestly hope tomorrow will be better but by the way things are going, I highly doubt it. Well, that just goes to show, guys can never be trusted! They can never be trusted to hold your fragile heart in their hands and not shatter them. To hold it and care for it and make sure they never lose it. Well, the guys I fall in love with anyway. So, guy friends please don’t take my comment to heart eh? This is me talking to my heart : see him? You’re attracted to him that means he is trouble! So, please stay away from him..he’s bad bad news! Don’t go knocking down his heart’s door begging to be let in. Are you going to listen to me huh? No? Bad, bad heart! Haha...no worries though, I ain’t going to go run off to some monastery, shave all my hair off, and become a nun. Why you ask? Well my next few lines will reveal why! Well here’s one guy who hasn’t disappointed me yet, aites? Unfortunately, he’s someone on TV. Actually, there are a few who have yet to disappoint me. BUT! He’s been making me feel better bout the whole kiwi situation...ahahha...so, the guy of the day would be..Spike from buffy the Vampire Slayer. Yes, yes. I’ve always liked watching Buffy. Unfortunately, I could never catch the airings and I couldn’t find any ahem ahem*cough cough* respectable places that sell ORIGINAL VCDS and DVDS. I just found my heaven last year...just look for Victory videos in Telawi. Bloody clear, with subtitles, different languages, special features and if you run into any problems, you can easily make the exchange. Take for example, Ms. Newbie here wanted to change City of Ember because I was having problems with it! Was watching it halfway and it hung! Funny thing was, I could watch it clearly without a hitch at my grandma’s place! And I was dying to know the ending! So, I went with annona today to get it changed. The lady there knows me pretty well..I would think so too! Especially since I do go on my binge shopping spree there buying up to Rm 200! She grins at me and I tell her my problem. She asks, oh, what chapter has this problem? Then I panicked..oh dear, she’s gonna check it and it’s gonna play well and she ain’t gonna change it for me. Haha..then i start explaining it’s fine with other players but I can’t watch it on mine. This lady here starts laughing and says calm down, relax I know I know. I have that problem too sometimes. I’m such a hyperventilater. Haha..yeah..it’s not a real word..but my friends should understand what I mean eh? Anyhow, back to buffy! Spikey boy here only appears in season 5, 6, 7! And a few episodes in season 2. Hah! He was originally suppose to appear in 2 episodes only but due to popular demand, he was cast as Buffy’s ‘convenient’ love interest later on...and boy am I glad, the rest of the female...and..ahem some male population agree with me:P Spike is smoking HOT. Honestly, his cheekbones are to die for and with his platinum blonde locks...wheet...decked all in black and he loves Buffy so much. He really provides a lot of awww moments which just melt my heart. Like this one line which even Annona thinks is super sweet! He said it to Buffy after she is brought back from being dead. ‘I just want you to know I saved you. Not when it mattered of course but after that. Every night after that. I was stronger, faster, more clever. Every night I save you.’ You know what? This post is getting way too long so I shall end it here and sorry for lacking pictures. I shall post more up the next time I blog aites? Until then, presenting the legendary Spike! Songs of the day(I’m so into these two songs right now) : Ne Yo-Mad(I actually don’t like his songs but this is wonderful) and Taylor Swift’s : Fearless
Look at those cheekbones will you?
'Love isn't logic in your brains, children...it's blood running through your veins, screaming for you to work it out'
just look at the man!
